The castrated man, who fell into the trap of believing that the Alpha Warrior represents the "enemy" equates strength with "rape", (an extension of a toxic mother's values). The castrated man is unconscious and unreflecting, he will act out perverse expectations, which is to behave in such a way that will "prove" to a toxic mothers (and other timid women who aren't willing to face their past, overcome and integrate things) that she is "correct about men" while these very men are doing her bidding yet appearing to be the sole perpetrators (perpetual traitor), while onlookers are never having it dawn on them that a  person who cannot control themselves around what excites their senses, is not strong...but is weak.  The lack of masculinity is what results in the evil patriarchy that women so want to smash.....

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I repeat "THE EVIL PATRIARCHY IS THE RESULT OF WEAK MEN CASTRATED BY COWARDLY WOMEN" .  A REAL MAN is a warrior, who who lives by the code to protect the vulnerable and the innocent, does not lie, cheat, steal or betray, and is called on by, rather than inviting himself, the most vulnerable person in the world.... the woman who is a warrior, strong, independent, and naturally sexual --rather than using sexuality for material gain and social manipulation. She is vulnerable, because she is everything "men" are afraid of and won't admit to, which explains so much of social posturing and "I would do this to that" when unable to see someone and say "hey, there's my friend, looks like she found some seashells. Cool".  You see images of her in fantasy art, because men are too chickenshit to handle her as a reality.

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It is when a person realizes the constant eroticism of perception, and that contrary to Academia, the intelligence of the Universe experienced by the Individual is a Goddess, that being overwhelmed by anything to have to dominate it is an impossible thought and utterly foreign behavioral pattern.  The Goddess demonstrates, with every synchronicity, that your intimate parts of yourself have been invited to be inside her---the proof of that being a child born of father and mother, an event manifest externally reflecting things never mentioned to other people, other than intimate partners.  

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Legitimate masculinity is the fight to overcome all that is wicked and foul, all that is the deeds of the spirit of betrayal, that enters the person who is too weak to integrate childhood wounds and relive what was too intense to be experienced at the time, which causes a part of the psyche to be "split off" and if severe enough, will have the potential to hijack the entire organism as an autonomous complex....something with a llife of its own, that has such contempt for the captain that locked it away, and takes over....using the idea of the person as a facade....wearing that person as a disquise, while "living" to make others feel what it was once sujected to.  

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Did you know, that calling something "unholy" is a mind trick meant to get people to associate NOT having holes in the boat that lets Hades in, with "bad"...and being "holy" can refer to having a psyche full of holes, that leaves them open to possession...by authoritarian paradigms, and ..... also on the Twilight Zone level? A warrior is not afraid to be honest and bold, I will say things that guarantee "he's crazy!" remarks.  The name is Crazy Shadows.  I recently have had a recall of many things, and although never leaving my apartment, feel like I have traveled the world.  Very surreal, to just remember what I know.  

It is a fact, and I know this story all too well, that it is the lack of masculinity which makes a person who would torture and rape an innocent person possible.  On the mundane level, strength, innocence, beauty and vulnerability.....is the trigger of unfaced childhood traumas and the instant blast of shame and self-hatred, non-submissive beauty is the arousal of painful things kept down that were experienced in childhood and never confronted, due to lack of masculinity (which is not "penis/vagina"--but actually fuck you vs, 'I have no pride, it is okay to do this to me') trigger a weak man to discharge upwellings of hatred and sudden eruptions of guilt and shame on the image of their feared inner child externalized on the face of their victim...who has gotten caught up in the crosshairs of "casting out demons", often the most beautiful women....vaginas are the fissures of men, and fishers of "men"--cast their nets into the sea (the field of vision--SEE) and the casting of nets, is projection of their own trip....that is the result of being  "only positive"--because negative is to go INWARDS, and in words, positive is telling reality what to do, and reality is SOPHIA, the Goddess.

The Poet understands what makes a Poet fit to recognize no Authority other than the communion that takes place between Sophia and the God within everyone....the immortal Consciousness that takes nothing literally, and gives REALITY a foot into this bad copy of a world, that doesn't let REALITY in....due to a lack of reception.  Always positive--pushing reality around, and falsifying everything....for the inability to take in what Sophia is saying.

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WEAK MEN are abusive men, and it is due to being too weak to face childhood issues, let alone go further and face the burdens being carried from other lifetimes....and WEAK MEN are not able to go there, because "what will people think?" controls them, and "what if they make fun of me?"

I am a wake!? (A funeral?)  Not woke (past tense, means disconnection fro NOW) Awakening, everyday, to the role I play, protector of the vulnerable and defender of the ostracized and rejected.  You might mistake me for a feminist, and it is a HUGE mistake.  Feminists are the enemies of WOMAN; the strong, intelligent, independent warrior of a woman, is brought to her knees by feminists--who blindly try to create the EXACT situation that brings violence and destruction to womankind.....and this happens by way of men's castration and control by timid women, and punishment of real men....those who volunteer to protect children from abuse, and who go after abusers.  Real men eliminate the need for police, who are often Seventh Cavalry types.

Nobody seems to get that the Ultimate Warrior, the Chief Alpha Male--the real one, is likely the best friend of the woman that intimidates little boys, not part of a "dog pack" and is entirely accustomed and used to things that trigger others to instantly go "I would do this and that to that thing!"  "I don't give a shit, and you won't because the reality is she won't like you, anyway...because you have no idea how to approach her world"---I don't fit in.  

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To be comfortable with female sexuality and not instantly triggered to have thoughts of physically being on top of it, financially being on top of it, physically or psychologically penetrating it--(for the sake of showing who's boss)--is the separation of boys and men.  Can you go to a nude beach, or other situation where she is beautiful and not wearing clothes and not have that alter your behavior, and simply continue to relate to the SELF that is behind the vehicle of flesh and bone? Yes, I can...and I have made a lot of observations over the years, and ---for many reasons, that I won't get into here, for sake of space....I have been laying low.  REALLY LOW.  Laying low, even involves my own amnesia.  Can you flow with being around a beautiful naked woman, that just doesn't feel like wearing clothes today....and not have an agenda that makes someone feel uncomfortable?

Did Lilith reject all men, NO! She just wanted a man around that knows exactly what it's like: to have to feel like covering up when people lose the ability to maintain a courteous attitude, to be able to look someone in the eye when talking to them, rather than their genitals, ass, breasts, etc. ....to relate to someone as a human being with boundaries and not someone that is automatically an object to fight over when she has cancer, to remember what it is like to be a vulnerable child around people who see an object to be used to satisfy their needs, agendas, and unfulfilled desires....to be used as a surro-gate when unable to reach their own gate, and unworthy to pass the gate...and don't forget....about Gates named Bill, because words are used by usurpers to manipulate a situation where the Gates of the Dawn are ignored.  

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The World Tree will grow, when and where there are enough Warriors to protect the Goddess from harm in a vulnerable stage, and the dog pack is not going to make it happen.  The homoerotic bros, who are so macho that they want other guys to see it when they use women to prove they don't really want to wrestle naked with their boyfriends....football is a very interesting study in "not being gay, I swear" syndrome.

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​is stronger than loyalty to the truth, loyalty to children, loyalty to legitimate victims of horrendous behavior, and "what if they try to hurt me?" is stronger than being willig to stand alone if that is what it takes.  Masculinity is not about having a penis, and I will show you an image of legitimate masculinity, to get the point across.

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I was an ugly duckling and completely treated like shit growing up, and was very surprised when I turned out looking a certain way, and with already horrible self-esteem levels that aren't allowed to exist behind my face because looking cool means that I don't know what it's like to have a shitty time, so...it's only fair that people should show me a really shitty time, ostracize me and make me quit hogging all the luck.  If my face were to say something like, "I want to succeed at something I care about", I had people treating me like I had a "huge ego" for being so full of myself as to want something other than apologizing for looking cool by doing what other people want for me, since I "have everything handed to me", and am "naive and airheaded", "vain and just wants attention", "not a man", "doesn't know how to work" ---all these things, total projections on me that had the experience equivalent to suddenly losing 150 lbs. and not expecting the strange ways people treat other people who LOOK like something they were told is ....selfish.  If I don't check in with people about what I'm doing, I am "out of control and a madman on the loose", and if not being someone's bitch, and ignoring them...it proves that I'm not doing anything...such as how it has gone to be the only person consistently there for my wife, her family INSISTS that because I'm good looking, I don't help out, I am a narcissist that wants to sit back and just get attention, I don't have empathy for my wife, and am everything that is bad.  If I don't let them rape every inch of my mind, my personality and my life.  If I tell them to stop abusing my wife, they can't believe the amazing narcissism that I have, that would refuse to acknowledge their "authority".  WHAT A NARCISSIST! HE REJECTS HIS AUTHORITY FIGURES! (They assume authority over my life, because....they are envious of what I do not even identify with, and I can prove this with astrology) It is really really fucked up to have people sabotage my wife's ordeal with chemotherapy, because they are trying to save her from me being good looking.  With all this idiot shit about racism going on, it's like all that prejudice has to go somewhere, and a heroic face is where it all goes, They seriously think that my looks prove that I don't care about her, and am a selfish narcissist.  You can read their constant threats, and their absred immaturity on other pages.

Ordinary looking people, will get away with murder and be forgiven anything.....on the other hand, beauty is required to be submissive to everyone, and to say "fuck you!"---is to have a big ego, narcissistic, anger problem, etc.  Do you think things go very well for a beautiful woman who is not submissive, and unashamed of her sexuality, which is for its own sake and not a tool for heartless manipulation?

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It is complete bullshit to not be allowed to talk about something that happens to me, even.  It does, and that is why I can go places others fear to tread, or not be allowed to.  I know all about being required to be submissive, and then maliciously gossipped about and treated badly, sabotaged....due to the envy of others, for something I  HAVE NEVER IDENTIFIED WITH IN THE FIRST PLACE.

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